I don't understand why this keeps happening to me! Really? What is SO WRONG with ME?

I know that I like things a certain way. I know that I can be wild and out of control. But I can also be the most caring and selfless person when it comes to a guy I care about. I may be uptight about some things, but I can also be very easy going at the same time. I like to have fun. I'm usually always doing something. I'm working on my education which will in turn give me a better opportunity in the business world. So WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?!!!

I just don't understand how things can go from phone calls everyday, spending time together and talking about everything under the sun and moon, to nothing...I know that we can get busy, but if you really like someone you will text or call. Or return a call. I feel so broken right now. And this isn't like when my relationships ended. This is like me putting myself out there, to someone I don't know. Not expecting anything out of it, and then actually liking the guy...come to find out that he is too imature to be with me. He's not ready for a girlfriend. He's selfish, and has too many things to do in life.

Who said that you have to do these things while being single? Who made up this rule!? What happened to the days when you could find someone that you really like and want to be around, and then do everything you want to do and do stuff together too! Why is this impossible?

I have NO idea....I am tired... I am tired of tears...I am tired of opening up to people... And I am tired...

I have lost all faith in Love. I really don't think that it's in my plan for this lifetime... I know that I am only 26, but really I've dated about 15-20 people in the past 13 months... And only about 5 of them were people I actually thought could be boyfriend material...

BTW, Beanie boy has fallen off the face of the Earth. I texted once and called once...Nothing...In three days.
~Ariel