It's the month for Love, or Not...

Funny thing is that this is one of my favorite times of year...I love to shower my man with little gifts and have romantic dinner and other activities... Yet, here I am...Another lonely year of being alone. Okay, it's a little too early to say whether I'll be alone or not. I'm sort of just counting on it.
I'd really rather be with Beanie Boy, but seeing as how he hasn't contacted me in exactly a week as of today, I'm sure we're done. And the best part of this is that I can't seem to get him out of my head. He's the last thing I think about at night and the first thing I think about in the morning. How ridiculous is it to be infatuated with someone that doesn't give a shit! Of course I should've known this...He is only 24, and plans to travel the world...Doesn't want to be tied down...What bullshit! This really sucks... He's probably the best person I've dated in a year or so, and it has to end like this... After all of the late night phone calls...After dinner with his Mom...After everything that was good, and not enough time to even have any bad...I don't understand why people are so quick to leave. What happened to finding someone to share your life with?
Well, whatever...I guess that's what I want, but since the male species has something against it, I'll just have to give up. Yes, I'm done. I don't even want to think about dating anyone.
And on top of it all, the guy with my coat keeps trying to hang out, and he's driving me nuts! Probably because I don't really want to see him, I want to see Beanie Boy! I know...I've got to get over it. And yes...
There will be better....
Someday...That's what I keep saying anyway...
It's just that coat guy might want me, but he's kind of an ass. And now, I'm not sure that I like that...I'd rather be with Beanie Boy. Sweet. Argh! I am so sick of dating....

~Ariel
gives up searching for love...